he isn't Your Will

he isn't Your Will, I can't move forward because I can't let go of the past memories, I can't move backward because he doesn't like me anymore....I got no way to go....I got no way to go....!!!!! Can't my Lord help me?? HE can, I know HE can...but where is HE? Where can I find HIM? Delay isn't reject?? I am so trapped!!