5 months into Year 2024

 5 months into year 2024, what has been happening so far?

Jan 24:  I travelled to Macao with my 2 friends. Although the trip was quite short as we only stay at Macao for full 3 days. Despite some ridiculous things that ah ma did that irritate me, overall I quite enjoy Macao. Not very crowd, the weather was so nice...unexpected cold which I liked a lot. Not much shopping but spend a fortune at Lululemon. I definitely recommended Macao for others to travel to. After this trip, I think I have started to cold shoulder ah ma from that onwards till today as at 31st May 2024. I have been giving her grossed out look even since. She was embarrassing us by wearing no sleeves dress at the weather of 6 degrees while ppl there were wearing puffer jacket at street. Just because she wants to save luggage money!! No words can describe how I felt about her ridiculous behavior. 

Feb 24 : Travel to KK for "guo da li" for Jeremy and Chloe. CNY was at 9th Feb, this year my deco theme is "Rattan". And I prepared a hotel food heater lights to heat my satay, only Jenny and her 3 daughters came visit other than my sibling family. I didn't take any photo of myself for CNY, total failure. Chap Goh Meh was held at Sara's house.

Mar 24: Jeremy and Chloe weddings was on 16th Mar and their Tawau meeting was held on 8th Mar, So the whole family traveled to Tawau in Mar, which is so fun. 

Also start from dunno when, going for red wine has been a routine for me and pau. And I start to enjoy a little tipsy after one bottle of wine. So even since we have been going to Wine trading almost every Thu or Fri. 

Apr 24: I travelled to KK again for solo trip. Why? no reason, just want to have a little getaway for being alone. Do I enjoy it? ok only...travel solo really not my things because I am not adventure enough. Travel alone always ended up just stay in the hotel room and I wouldn't go explore the city at all. Lucky the hotel that I booked "Mercure Hotel" was near Gaya street, which got some very unique store around. At least I didn't just go the Imago mall after being there for thousand times. 

Love this stationery store...got such a happy vibe inside the store.

May 24: We are planning to bring mum to KL on Jun, which bring me joy, at least I got some thing to looking forward to. Also start from 18th Mar, I have been going to MHDR for meeting. So these few months I have been meeting Edward and Ricky so often. Bye for now.

Ultimate Goal

Recently I heard from Youtuber Ali Abdaal that we needs to set our ultimate life goal and plan ahead how to achieve this goal. So when I though about this, I come to a conclusion that my ultimate goal actually is retire with RM1.8m money. This is that one ultimate goal which I am pursuing every single day. Tbh this is really what I am pursuing every day. So meaning as long as I got RM1.8m money in my bank, then i can quit and close the LC. 

Actually is it hard to have RM1.8m in the bank? Yes...that's why I need to work till 65yo in order to have this money. Why I need RM1.8m? Well....Estimate I would need RM6k / per month to have a comfortable life. So by RM6k x 12 x 25 =RM1.8m. So by interest of 4% p.a., I can earn RM6k with my RM1.8m deposit. I only hope I can sustain LC for another 20 years. I knew this "Ultimate Goal" would eventually be "Arrival Fallacy". At this moment, at this time, all I want is no need to worry about money or work. I can just live my everyday life with ease and peace. No rushing, No worry, No one bothering me....

Ali said "The journey is the destination. If you can figure out what you authentically want, and work towards it while enjoying the journey, that’s all that really matters in the end."

One week into new year 2024, how's life so far? I have been working hard on my digital planner now, and didn't lying on my couch during evenings time. This is one of my goal for 2024 which is fully utilize the 3-4 hours before bed time to do somethings meaningful. I also got to spend more time at home these few weeks. Pau got covid which is so good that she stop bothering me and ask me out for drink. Three of us are going to Macao next sat. The trip hasn't start but I have started to feel irritating already. The whole trip ended up just me and ah ma travelling along. If she so reluctant to travel with us, might as well tell it to our face. After enemy with Julie, I can't travel with the cousin anymore. Then I hope I can travel with these 2. But End up being an unpleasant experience again. Hai.....Look like I need to travel by myself already which is too sad. My Travelling dream might not come true when I retire.

Goodbye 2023

Near year-end again...2023 about to be over. Has 2023 been a good year for me? 

This year has been a whirlwind. A veritable roller coaster full of twists and turns, ups and downs.

I experienced people with disappointing of late, also cowards who rely on Dutch courage to say what they really mean, then don't have spine enough to follow through with action. They have lacked manners and basic consideration or regard for others. Spreading misleading and deceitful rumors about my company. Well, I am out of these drama and I believe the truth would tell its story one day. Even the truth never been properly disclosure, I believe I can stand strong in front of my God, that's the most important things for me. 

That's why I made a very difficult decision this month. I decide to forgo my HRDF trainer qualification. I really can't bring myself to do somethings that is so forgery. This is a hard decision to made mainly because If this certificate costs me RM2k and 5 days to get it. Which is a big investment of time and money. I can easily forge some PV and attendant list to get it through. Whenever I want to "create" the attendance list, I can't bring myself to write down the name. I guess I must stand strong and have faith to my Lord. 

The decision to move out of Jim Logs is not as hard as this one. Maybe I really have enough of their bullshit and I just want to get out of that curse place. Relying on my faith and having sense of righteousness bring peace and joy to my heart. So I guess this is the best decision that I have made in Year 2023. That's why I said 2023 has been a veritable roller coaster. 

Amidst all this, though, I have the strongest support system here with my family who have poured in love and care, offering support and money especially my mum. I am so grateful for her unconditional love to me. I really count myself as the most blessed child to have a mother who still can cook and care for me in the age of 45. Talk about Gratitude for year 2023.

As the year 2023 comes to a close, I want to express my heartfelt gratitude. Thank you for the lessons learned, the challenges overcome, and the moments of joy and growth. I am grateful for the opportunities that came my way, the relationships that deepened, and the achievements, both big and small. I am filled with immense gratitude for the love, sacrifices and unwavering support from my mum. May the lessons of this year guide me into a brighter and more fulfilling future. Grateful for the journey and excited for what lies ahead." Ending the year by seriously evaluating how and who I spend my time with in 2024. The only way is up.

New Phase

 In just 15 days, office renovation has make such a big progress, I can say it is around 50% completion. The partition has up, the entrance wall has demolished, the electric 50% complete, the carpet has arrived, all doors solved... so now only left the aircon installation, finalize furniture, install carpet, the signboard and curtain. Only 2 items which I haven't found any quotation is signboard and curtain. But the most headache one is furniture. Let me show some picture here for the sake of recording the me memory as well as new phase of LC & Co,

Go with your guts

 

In my last blog, I mentioned the next time I log in here I hope I have some good news to share. Well, I got a big new to share, but I am not sure is it a good new or bad news. LC is moving out of Jim logs soon. I read back the last blog; it reminds me again how struggle I was when I deal with that asshole Julie. I think when I wrote my last blog, they were still at Switzerland. The thing got better because she didn't look for me after her trip and we totally lost contact. She chooses to distance me because she doesn't want me to handle her account already. But she doesn't have the guts to tell me that, so she chooses to distance me and not contact with me anymore. 

I don't know whether it is the real reason, or she heard something from Sally about me telling Sally the situation of her business. But no matter what, I think it is the best for all of us. I really hate that she always sounds like I worked for her when we have conversation with relatives. Like she would say she won't pay me the fee if ....blab blab blab.....someting like that. Of course, she was joking but to be honest, she did pay me so even though I didn't technically work for her, I still earn the money from her which I hate it.

So now after some considering I decided to take a big step, that's find my own office and move out of Jim Logs. Now I can totally break away from them forever. Yes I have been complaining about the sisters keep sitting in my office and I really have no freedom to do my own stuff. Like I drew my bullet journal, I did some craft in the office. I really have complained about it for quite some time. So now It finally happening. 

These few months I have lost few thousands due to losing the accounting fee from her. But Thanks God I also found some new clients. I really angry at myself for being inexperience at account. On 8th Aug, I went to MH office but I gave the wrong advice to Edward. Gosh...whenever I though abt this matter, I felt pain inside me. I really angry with myself for not checking the details before I gave them the info. I should have stay cool and tell them I check first and get back to them.  

Until now I can only tell it to this blog. I can't bring it out for anyone around me. I was so stressful last few months. I didn't sleep well and always woke up in the middle of the night. Think of the best way to get out of this situation. It is going to be a big challenge for me. 

I think next week the office can start renovation. Meaning I need to pull out my retirement saving for the renovation. Well, no choice......I need to move on. Until now I haven't told my family about it. I don't know when I would tell them. But I know what kind of reaction I would get from them, just like 8 years ago when I decide to leave BLD, I think I just have to go with my guts!!

Yes, LC is going to get better and better. With the grace of Lord, LC can survive for 8 years, God is going to bless LC for another 8 years...... and more 8 years to come.

Ameh.

Tiring 2023

 

2023 has been dreadful. Beginning of the year I still quite happy and content. Dunno start from which month I just start to felt so annoying about everything around me especially at work. The main reason definitely is Ju. She is pain in the arse, asshole. Biggest liar and most stupid woman I ever meet. Anyway long story short, I am not going to go through all these drama with her anymore. She wants to play game, let her play herself. I am so tiring to deal with all her stupid idiom plot that she created. She thought she is so smart and can manipulate people around. Go ahead with the game, I am out of it. 

So my next problem is to find new clients to replace the income that I have losses. Well, instead of being so unhappy and uneasy around her, I rather choose to go a bumpy road and build up my career again. Although is not going to be easy and that's a lot of new challenge I need to face, but sooner or later I definitely need to face this issue. So rather start my own plan first before she has any action against me. 

Next month I am going to KL for checking again. Mum has been sick and seeing doctor whole half year. This is another tiring matter that have been dreading me. But nowadays as in these few days, she feel a lot better, Thanks God for that. Peter and Judy are going well also. Mum has been doting Judy and this is something so sweet to see. This morning I saw her talking to Judy telling her she got painful leg but Judy ran away. She was angry and saying Judy didn't like her. Hahaha...is so sweet to see mum spoiling Judy. 

So this year I am going to choose course training as my new career direction. I know is a new thing to me and is going to be tiring. But I need to try it first. I must choose other career path other than account. Because my firm is not a audit firm and is difficult to convince client to let me do their account in a monthly basic. But I need monthly income to survive. If only do the sole proprietor or partnership tax once a year, how to survive?

Anyway that's all from me now. Hopefully next time when I log in, I have some good news to share. 

A note for 2022

2022 is going to be over soon and I want to drop down some notes here so next time I can recap on what happen in Year 2022.

I haven't blog as much in 2022 meaning I am emotionally happy. I remember last year I blogged at lot is because I wasn't happy and have a lot of argument with mum and feeling down as well. Here are fews things which should be noted down for record.

Peter & Judy

One thing that bother me a lot is Peter and Judy. Starting this year CNY I requested mum saying can they stay indoor during night time for 15 days during CNY so that the sound of fireworks wouldn't scare them away. Mum agreed and it has been such a release for me. I don't have to worry about them being scare during the night and I can have peace of mind during the night also. Moreover I don't felt guilty as their caretaker. Seeing them suffer and feel so scare during the night really broke my heart. And starting dunno when Judy start to stay indoor every night now. hahaha...And mum seem to allow her to stay...But not Peter. Well.. Peter is ok to stay outdoor as he wants his freedom. This matter doesn't bother me as much this year which I think I need to appreciate and be Thankful about it. 

Renovation

I finally start my renovation journey for the house. Well I started with a wall in my room first, is a baby step, but it should be a important matter to note down too. This year my house also renovate the fence which is so unexpected. Because the neighbor want to do it and willing to pay half of the cost, so mum agree to do it also. Which is so good, it means I got one items less from my renovation list as well. Next year I want to do something to the garden. This would be one of my goal for next year.

Planning

For some reason planning for future month or year really bring joy to my life. I enjoy doing planning on Bullet journal and my personal excel record. I plan for my retirement fund, my company, any possible passive income, my hobbies, my spending, travelling etc. What can I say? Planning spark joy.....Another side note for this: I have been very reluctant to go for breakfast or any 2 hours drink with Pau. Honestly I really think it is so waste of my time. First, I don't want to intake any alcohol or food after 3pm, second, where got so many things to talk? Talking rubbish only.... I really think is being very selfish of her to drag me out just because she needs to wait for her kids to finish tuition. Gosh...I don't enjoy it and why should I waste my time for your personal matter? These few months I was so xien about the breakfast or any drink invite message. I like her as friend but I really want to have some alone time at home. I enjoy staying at home and relax. Doesn't she realize I never ever ask her or ah ma go for any yam cha or breakfast or dinner? Once a month I can accept, but nothing more than that. 

Happiness is the satisfaction with the way one's life is going and freedom to make life choices. 

Stillness

This few months when I got distracted by all the "going out invitation", and when I heard both of them saying they like to yam cha so much, they can sacrifice anything for yam cha ...blab blab blab...I though to myself what a bunch of idiom. What a brainless women they are. I try to think of a way to explain to them why we should have some quiet time or some stillness in our life. Instead of rushing here and there everyday, have they even sit down and have some alone time to think of their life? I also try to rational this thinking too, why I need to have alone time to think, why I should planning for my life, why I should have more stillness in everyday life. I like this quote a lot:

"Stillness is what aim the archie's arrow. It inspires new ideas. It sharpens perspective and illuminates connection." Ryan Holiday