GOOD THINGS START WITH GRATITUDE

Today is 3rd Feb 2026. I haven't been writing anything since 2024, which is so crazy. But I come back here with more blessing and grateful, and a good start for the new year 2026. Suddenly today I really feel like record down my though and feel grateful for the people around me. But before that I think I should start with recall back what happen in Year 2025.

Year 2025 the whole year i didn't took any oversea travelling, which really broke my mental apart. Mum took knee surgery on 19th Aug 2025 which from there onward, things start to change bits by bits. For years I struggle with coping with my mum cooking and not having control over my household chores. I can't really change the layout nor the items in the kitchen or refrigerator. That's why I don't really step into kitchen to cook nor doing anything related to the food.  Because if I change anything would trigger argument. But since mum can't really walk and I have to take over the kitchen to prepare food for her. From that onward I start to gain more and more control over the whole kitchen. I can start to eat what I want for breakfast, I can choose to cook what I want etc. For someone over 45 years old still have to live under parent's control is actually pathetic. I have to admit that if things doesn't start to change, I might have breakdown soon. 

So year 2025 has slightly move toward the direction which I am hoping for long time. I am very mindful and know what I want for my life but my life was stuck somewhere. The feeling of no control over the simplest things like eating is really pathetic. I should have aware of it sooner. Some people would think no need to worry about what to cook or no need to prepare meal is a blessing, maybe that is for some lazy people, but not for me. Also because of my mum we had big fight among sisters which also gave me another way out. I can now delegate Mum's physio or doctor appointment to all the sibling as I have been in this role, doing all these by myself has really drag me to depression. 

On Jan 2026, I took a solo trip to Osaka and Kyoto also has been a wonderful experience and it also gave me an insight that I can do it!! I really can be so independent and travel alone!! I enjoy the whole trip as I can do whatever I want , eat whatever I want, no need to tolerate with other ppl schedule. I also travel the way I want it. I am an 打卡traveller. I only want to take photo at the famous tourist spot, that's. I don't waste time on exploring the temple or anything else. I just search where can I take nice photo of the building, then just travel to that spot, take the picture, done with it. I love this type of travelling. It is so me. Because afterall, what I brought back is the photo to prove I have been to those spot, that's all I want. With this in mind, I know what type of travelling style I enjoy, so for next solo trip i would plan my trip this way.

Also I am grateful for Petrine, Edward and Pastor Nguen. They have been my 恩人 again in year 2025. I received lots of blessing from them, in money term or just a few words of caring is enough to warm my heart. Petrine and Edward mainly been my work related 恩人。As for Pastor Nguen, i can't say he help me a lot in term of spiritual, but just a few simple acts really warm my heart as I feel like I have received care at church. Last Sunday I was in charge of computer control. He would help me with few problem which I don't even know who to ask for help. Because I really doesn't have much friend with church member and they also very unfamiliar with me. So most of them wouldn't come to me purposely to help me one. Only Pastor Nguen, who is so 细心 and notice few issues and send ppl to help me. He would notice the need and send ppl to help, which really prove he is a good and caring Rev.

I just feel blessing to have people around me to help me with my difficulty as I am single and most of the time I must reach out to people to seek for help. So when people can notice my needs and send help without I mention it, it would really warm my heart. My mum loves me and depends on me a lot. Of course I love her too. But at the same time I feel burden also. 

This year 2026, 3 words to manifest are

Love, Alignment and Healthy 

Continue my journey in Year 2026 with lots of love and having a healthy baby as well as align all my needs in center of my heart. Love myself more and having freedom to enjoy my life fully.

Chaos........

5 months into Year 2024

 5 months into year 2024, what has been happening so far?

Jan 24:  I travelled to Macao with my 2 friends. Although the trip was quite short as we only stay at Macao for full 3 days. Despite some ridiculous things that ah ma did that irritate me, overall I quite enjoy Macao. Not very crowd, the weather was so nice...unexpected cold which I liked a lot. Not much shopping but spend a fortune at Lululemon. I definitely recommended Macao for others to travel to. After this trip, I think I have started to cold shoulder ah ma from that onwards till today as at 31st May 2024. I have been giving her grossed out look even since. She was embarrassing us by wearing no sleeves dress at the weather of 6 degrees while ppl there were wearing puffer jacket at street. Just because she wants to save luggage money!! No words can describe how I felt about her ridiculous behavior. 

Feb 24 : Travel to KK for "guo da li" for Jeremy and Chloe. CNY was at 9th Feb, this year my deco theme is "Rattan". And I prepared a hotel food heater lights to heat my satay, only Jenny and her 3 daughters came visit other than my sibling family. I didn't take any photo of myself for CNY, total failure. Chap Goh Meh was held at Sara's house.

Mar 24: Jeremy and Chloe weddings was on 16th Mar and their Tawau meeting was held on 8th Mar, So the whole family traveled to Tawau in Mar, which is so fun. 

Also start from dunno when, going for red wine has been a routine for me and pau. And I start to enjoy a little tipsy after one bottle of wine. So even since we have been going to Wine trading almost every Thu or Fri. 

Apr 24: I travelled to KK again for solo trip. Why? no reason, just want to have a little getaway for being alone. Do I enjoy it? ok only...travel solo really not my things because I am not adventure enough. Travel alone always ended up just stay in the hotel room and I wouldn't go explore the city at all. Lucky the hotel that I booked "Mercure Hotel" was near Gaya street, which got some very unique store around. At least I didn't just go the Imago mall after being there for thousand times. 

Love this stationery store...got such a happy vibe inside the store.

May 24: We are planning to bring mum to KL on Jun, which bring me joy, at least I got some thing to looking forward to. Also start from 18th Mar, I have been going to MHDR for meeting. So these few months I have been meeting Edward and Ricky so often. Bye for now.

Ultimate Goal

Recently I heard from Youtuber Ali Abdaal that we needs to set our ultimate life goal and plan ahead how to achieve this goal. So when I though about this, I come to a conclusion that my ultimate goal actually is retire with RM1.8m money. This is that one ultimate goal which I am pursuing every single day. Tbh this is really what I am pursuing every day. So meaning as long as I got RM1.8m money in my bank, then i can quit and close the LC. 

Actually is it hard to have RM1.8m in the bank? Yes...that's why I need to work till 65yo in order to have this money. Why I need RM1.8m? Well....Estimate I would need RM6k / per month to have a comfortable life. So by RM6k x 12 x 25 =RM1.8m. So by interest of 4% p.a., I can earn RM6k with my RM1.8m deposit. I only hope I can sustain LC for another 20 years. I knew this "Ultimate Goal" would eventually be "Arrival Fallacy". At this moment, at this time, all I want is no need to worry about money or work. I can just live my everyday life with ease and peace. No rushing, No worry, No one bothering me....

Ali said "The journey is the destination. If you can figure out what you authentically want, and work towards it while enjoying the journey, that’s all that really matters in the end."

One week into new year 2024, how's life so far? I have been working hard on my digital planner now, and didn't lying on my couch during evenings time. This is one of my goal for 2024 which is fully utilize the 3-4 hours before bed time to do somethings meaningful. I also got to spend more time at home these few weeks. Pau got covid which is so good that she stop bothering me and ask me out for drink. Three of us are going to Macao next sat. The trip hasn't start but I have started to feel irritating already. The whole trip ended up just me and ah ma travelling along. If she so reluctant to travel with us, might as well tell it to our face. After enemy with Julie, I can't travel with the cousin anymore. Then I hope I can travel with these 2. But End up being an unpleasant experience again. Hai.....Look like I need to travel by myself already which is too sad. My Travelling dream might not come true when I retire.

Goodbye 2023

Near year-end again...2023 about to be over. Has 2023 been a good year for me? 

This year has been a whirlwind. A veritable roller coaster full of twists and turns, ups and downs.

I experienced people with disappointing of late, also cowards who rely on Dutch courage to say what they really mean, then don't have spine enough to follow through with action. They have lacked manners and basic consideration or regard for others. Spreading misleading and deceitful rumors about my company. Well, I am out of these drama and I believe the truth would tell its story one day. Even the truth never been properly disclosure, I believe I can stand strong in front of my God, that's the most important things for me. 

That's why I made a very difficult decision this month. I decide to forgo my HRDF trainer qualification. I really can't bring myself to do somethings that is so forgery. This is a hard decision to made mainly because If this certificate costs me RM2k and 5 days to get it. Which is a big investment of time and money. I can easily forge some PV and attendant list to get it through. Whenever I want to "create" the attendance list, I can't bring myself to write down the name. I guess I must stand strong and have faith to my Lord. 

The decision to move out of Jim Logs is not as hard as this one. Maybe I really have enough of their bullshit and I just want to get out of that curse place. Relying on my faith and having sense of righteousness bring peace and joy to my heart. So I guess this is the best decision that I have made in Year 2023. That's why I said 2023 has been a veritable roller coaster. 

Amidst all this, though, I have the strongest support system here with my family who have poured in love and care, offering support and money especially my mum. I am so grateful for her unconditional love to me. I really count myself as the most blessed child to have a mother who still can cook and care for me in the age of 45. Talk about Gratitude for year 2023.

As the year 2023 comes to a close, I want to express my heartfelt gratitude. Thank you for the lessons learned, the challenges overcome, and the moments of joy and growth. I am grateful for the opportunities that came my way, the relationships that deepened, and the achievements, both big and small. I am filled with immense gratitude for the love, sacrifices and unwavering support from my mum. May the lessons of this year guide me into a brighter and more fulfilling future. Grateful for the journey and excited for what lies ahead." Ending the year by seriously evaluating how and who I spend my time with in 2024. The only way is up.

New Phase

 In just 15 days, office renovation has make such a big progress, I can say it is around 50% completion. The partition has up, the entrance wall has demolished, the electric 50% complete, the carpet has arrived, all doors solved... so now only left the aircon installation, finalize furniture, install carpet, the signboard and curtain. Only 2 items which I haven't found any quotation is signboard and curtain. But the most headache one is furniture. Let me show some picture here for the sake of recording the me memory as well as new phase of LC & Co,

Go with your guts

 

In my last blog, I mentioned the next time I log in here I hope I have some good news to share. Well, I got a big new to share, but I am not sure is it a good new or bad news. LC is moving out of Jim logs soon. I read back the last blog; it reminds me again how struggle I was when I deal with that asshole Julie. I think when I wrote my last blog, they were still at Switzerland. The thing got better because she didn't look for me after her trip and we totally lost contact. She chooses to distance me because she doesn't want me to handle her account already. But she doesn't have the guts to tell me that, so she chooses to distance me and not contact with me anymore. 

I don't know whether it is the real reason, or she heard something from Sally about me telling Sally the situation of her business. But no matter what, I think it is the best for all of us. I really hate that she always sounds like I worked for her when we have conversation with relatives. Like she would say she won't pay me the fee if ....blab blab blab.....someting like that. Of course, she was joking but to be honest, she did pay me so even though I didn't technically work for her, I still earn the money from her which I hate it.

So now after some considering I decided to take a big step, that's find my own office and move out of Jim Logs. Now I can totally break away from them forever. Yes I have been complaining about the sisters keep sitting in my office and I really have no freedom to do my own stuff. Like I drew my bullet journal, I did some craft in the office. I really have complained about it for quite some time. So now It finally happening. 

These few months I have lost few thousands due to losing the accounting fee from her. But Thanks God I also found some new clients. I really angry at myself for being inexperience at account. On 8th Aug, I went to MH office but I gave the wrong advice to Edward. Gosh...whenever I though abt this matter, I felt pain inside me. I really angry with myself for not checking the details before I gave them the info. I should have stay cool and tell them I check first and get back to them.  

Until now I can only tell it to this blog. I can't bring it out for anyone around me. I was so stressful last few months. I didn't sleep well and always woke up in the middle of the night. Think of the best way to get out of this situation. It is going to be a big challenge for me. 

I think next week the office can start renovation. Meaning I need to pull out my retirement saving for the renovation. Well, no choice......I need to move on. Until now I haven't told my family about it. I don't know when I would tell them. But I know what kind of reaction I would get from them, just like 8 years ago when I decide to leave BLD, I think I just have to go with my guts!!

Yes, LC is going to get better and better. With the grace of Lord, LC can survive for 8 years, God is going to bless LC for another 8 years...... and more 8 years to come.

Ameh.

Tiring 2023

 

2023 has been dreadful. Beginning of the year I still quite happy and content. Dunno start from which month I just start to felt so annoying about everything around me especially at work. The main reason definitely is Ju. She is pain in the arse, asshole. Biggest liar and most stupid woman I ever meet. Anyway long story short, I am not going to go through all these drama with her anymore. She wants to play game, let her play herself. I am so tiring to deal with all her stupid idiom plot that she created. She thought she is so smart and can manipulate people around. Go ahead with the game, I am out of it. 

So my next problem is to find new clients to replace the income that I have losses. Well, instead of being so unhappy and uneasy around her, I rather choose to go a bumpy road and build up my career again. Although is not going to be easy and that's a lot of new challenge I need to face, but sooner or later I definitely need to face this issue. So rather start my own plan first before she has any action against me. 

Next month I am going to KL for checking again. Mum has been sick and seeing doctor whole half year. This is another tiring matter that have been dreading me. But nowadays as in these few days, she feel a lot better, Thanks God for that. Peter and Judy are going well also. Mum has been doting Judy and this is something so sweet to see. This morning I saw her talking to Judy telling her she got painful leg but Judy ran away. She was angry and saying Judy didn't like her. Hahaha...is so sweet to see mum spoiling Judy. 

So this year I am going to choose course training as my new career direction. I know is a new thing to me and is going to be tiring. But I need to try it first. I must choose other career path other than account. Because my firm is not a audit firm and is difficult to convince client to let me do their account in a monthly basic. But I need monthly income to survive. If only do the sole proprietor or partnership tax once a year, how to survive?

Anyway that's all from me now. Hopefully next time when I log in, I have some good news to share.